“The raw truth of an incident never ends,” writes Michael Ondaatje in Divisidero.
I joined a WordPress daily prompt class just after starting to re-read Divisidero. These words were still running through my head when this prompt came and I thought of them and how writing is sometimes the only way to find the meaning in the endless raw truth of the incidents of our lives.
I write to inhabit the raw truth of relationships long ago lost, of faith given up and found, of people forgotten only until I move beneath the surface of memories. I write to inhabit the raw truth of thing still new and huge, like Claire’s birth and daily changing self, and my identity as mother and partner.
I write to move through the raw truth of literature, of books like Divisidero that haunt and illuminate, that remind us of our own hauntings.
“For we live with those retrievals from childhood that coalesce and echo throughout our lives, the way shattered pieces of glass in a kaleidoscope reappear in new forms and are songlike in their refrains and rhymes, making up a single monologue. We live permanently in the recurrence of our own stories, whatever story we tell,” Ondaatje writes.
We live permanently in the recurrence of our own stories, whatever story we tell.
I write to shape the recurrence of all the stories, my own and those of others, in which I live.